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We belong to nobody and nobody belongs to us. We don't even belong to eachother. [Tuesday
November 17th, 2009
[ mood | irritated ]

So this semester is pretty much almost over, and I couldn't be happier about it. It truly did not go how I thought it would, but then again usually nothing goes as planned. School is school, same old boring classes, boring tests, and boring lectures. I'm really hoping that this last semester here goes by as fast as this one did and I can go well on my way to bigger and better things. I still have no idea what i'm planning to do next fall, but I know things will work out. They have to, as long as I keep up my GPA and keep on actually going to class.

My grandpa is leaving for a couple months to Venezuela. Although i'm truly happy for him to take this well deserved vacation time, I can't help but not want him to go. I hate not being able to see him whenever I want to, let alone just sit and watch a movie with him. Every time things just get too hard, I get too stressed or just need someone to be around, I can always count on him. Without him here for the next couple months, I really have no idea who i'm going to turn to when I just need someone to keep me grounded.. especially with the way things have been going lately.. i'd be lucky not to go insane.

When it comes to my mother, nothing really changes. It's always the same arguments, same frustrations and disappointments. Don't get me wrong, my mother is my best friend and I love her more than imaginable, but sometimes I just wish she would really appreciate me for the person that I am, rather than the person she sets me out to be. I'm only human, I make mistakes. As I was cleaning out some drawers at my grandpa's house I came upon an old report card from when I was in 1st grade. Of course I smiled observing all the A's, perfect behavior, perfect attendance.. but what truly made me cringe was a little note written at the end.. "Aida is an amazing smart girl, she's capable of so many things! But she needs to realize that it's OK for her to make mistakes.." That truly broke my heart, that made it official, even at the beginning of it all I was this way. I know that I do make mistakes.. but I won't accept them.

What truly keeps me sane though, is the fact that I have some of the most amazing people as my best friends. My girls are some of the most beautiful, caring, intelligent and fun people I have ever had the privilege of surrounding myself with. I really couldn't pick a better group of best friends. And although i've grown up having more guy friends than girls, I can honestly say there are only a handful of guy friends i'll remember forever.

Whenever it comes to my love life, things are never easy. So whenever it comes to someone new, I always expect the worse and don't get my hopes too high.

Rob and I talk a few times a week, we laugh at the stupid things I did over the weekend, and joke about how we're going to get married eventually. But each time I hang up the phone, I get this overwhelming feeling of sadness. I can't believe that I haven't seen him in over a year, that we haven't sat and talked, driven around, even hugged in so long. I love him, I truly do.. but it's a different kind of love. I know in my heart he's not the guy i'm supposed to end up with, but I do believe he's my soul mate. The boy knows me better than I know myself, and he's proven it time and time again. It doesn't matter that he doesn't know exactly what goes on everyday of my life anymore, he still knows by the sound of my voice if there is something on my mind and in the end, that's all that really matters. Everyone should have that one person that knows you so well, they can read you in a heartbeat.

So, as life would have it, I got my hopes up and got burned. It was the first time in god knows how long that I actually opened up to someone, sat and had an actual conversation and just spent quality time with a guy. I always keep things purely physical and nothing more. I don't get attached to anyone, doesn't matter how much of a sweet talker you may be, how hott you may be, or how amazing the sex may be.. I just don't do it. But for some INSANE reason that I'm still trying to grasp a concept on, I let myself start to actually be able to say I 'like' someone again. For lack of embarrassing myself, let's just call him Pablo. I would trip if he hadn't text me, i'd overanalyze the things he would say and do, i'd act all prim and proper, just for him. If someone told me in hs, that i'd be tripping over Pablo.. i'd laugh in their face. Not to say that I wasn't attracted to Pablo back then, but I was more afraid of him than I was interested. Anyways, Pablo and I to say that least are not going to work out. We'd spend alot of time together, and just one day overnight things changed, and now i'm left saying WTF did I just let happen?

Oh, and if another one of my exes knock up an underage teeny bopper i'm going to have a serious mental breakdown.


April 13th, 2009
[ mood | nostalgic ]

It's April of 2009 and I think i'm barely realizing how much has changed in these few years.

I wish someone had told me college was completely amazing while I was in high school. I love it; I would not have taken any time off. I have always had that inner nerd that was too smart for her own good. I love my classes and i'm making perfect grades. I love writing; it has always been a passion of mine. I never thought that I was a good writer, but my teachers seem to think differently. I'm just trying to make my grandpa proud, it's all i have ever wanted to do. I can't wait to move to Houston again and go to UofH. It really is my kind of city, you can never be bored because there is always something to do. It will be strange leaving my mom again. I hate the thought of her being all alone, but if I want to go anywhere in life I have to go. And Houston would be perfect because the majority of my family lives there. The best part about it is that I would be closer to my grandpa. I see him every weekend but I still miss him. He's done so much for me my entire life, I don't think there is anything I could ever do to repay him.

Life in Corpus isn't as bad as people make it out to be. As long as you keep yourself surrounded by good people, you'll love it. I have been so blessed to have the friends that I do now. Mandee and I are inseparable and we honestly see us growing up together. I don't doubt for a second that we're going to get married and be pregnant at the same time. Stupid, I know, but it's just that kind of a friendship. I've picked up a tendency to go out on the weekends and drink, alot. Which I really need to work on before it becomes more of a problem. I think back on the innocent little girl I used to be, so anti drinking and smoking and then I look at myself now. That's just a regular weekend. I like to have fun, but I think i've taken it as far as it should go for now. I never want it to get to the point of passed out, throwing up, or completely incoherent.

Rosana is about to graduate. I'm so proud of her, she's come a long way. She has matured and has a huge heart. She's a tigerrette, but one that you could actually stand. She has a mind, and doesn't always think with her vagina. We've been through heaven and hell together and I love her more than she will ever know. Of course, she's still the loud annoying little girl she's always been, but i've learned to live with it. Honestly, I think i'd miss it if I didn't have it anymore.

I saw my old boyfriend Brandon a few weeks ago, certainly a trip. I've known this guy about 7 years, and we've always kept in touch. He'd randomly come to my house to see me a couple times a year just to see how I was doing. I've always held a soft spot for him even though he's just ridiculous. Lately he's got himself pretty put together. He has his own house, an amazing car, a stable job, starting school, he doesn't smoke, doesn't drink. Probably everything I would want in a guy these days, but then.. he spoke. As easily as I got on cloud 9 as easily I got off. He could probably talk any girl into falling in love with him. He's the same guy he's always been, a wishful thinker with the worst intentions.

The other day Rosana brought me an old picture she had found of Robert and I at the park near my house. I had never seen it before, and in all honesty, it broke my heart. We looked so young, and so in love. He was a huge part of my past, and I realized I guess I never completely let it go. I still think about him from time to time, wonder what could've happened this past summer. He actually went out of his way and wanted to see me, actually wanted to talk to me, and I brushed it off as if it was just another person. I'm a complete dumbass, I know. He probably didn't have those kind of intentions I always wished he would, but I guess i'll never know. Someone told me he's getting married. I don't know why in the world it bothered me, but if he's happy then that's all that matters.

After two years, Leonard and I called it quits. We never actually had a stable relationship, but we had something. That something was never defined, which was the problem in it all. We wanted something casual and fun but after a while it started to get complicated. We started spending actual time together besides our 'benefits.' Everyone that knew us said there was more to the both of us that we were too stubborn to see. And they were probably right, but I knew that we would never work. We couldn't trust one another, and we both certainly didn't want to settle down. I know he cares about me, otherwise he wouldn't have done some of the things he's done for me. The boy went out of his way, in San Antonio, when he completely didn't have to, just to see me and make sure I was alright. I love him for that, I guess that's why I care. I saw a different side of him that most girls don't get to see.

As for Rob and Rudy, there are no words for the two of them. Probably the two biggest mistakes of my life. I don't hate them, but I don't love them either. I don't feel much of anything for the two of them these days. You just don't treat a girl the way those two treated me.

For the first time in my life since I was 13 years old, I’m completely single. I have no attachments what so ever to anyone. I have always been the girl with a boyfriend. I thought I would hate being single, and even though at times I do, it has been great for me. I’ve learned a lot about myself and how to count on myself only. It gets lonely from time to time, sometimes more than I’d want it to be, but I’ve accomplished more in this short time of me being single than I have while I was in a relationship.


All I want is an apology for what you did and how you treated me. [Tuesday
June 6th, 2006
[ mood | shocked ]

I'm in fucking shock that this shit is happening. This is truly the most fucked up thing i've ever heard of. I can't believe that they went behind my back for the past two months. She fucking knew I still saw him. She knew he still fucking called me. She knew he'd fucking tell me how much he missed me. She knew I still fucked around with him. And him, to straight up lie to me. To tell me he hadn't talked to her or seen her in forever and to tell me how he thought she was fucking nasty. To fucking go on about how much he missed me, how we could work this shit out. This is just plainly fucking demented. She's like my fucking sister. We live in the same house. Her dad is my fucking grandfather. She's my own flesh and blood. I can't imagine what the fuck was going through their minds while they were fucking eachother. That bitch saw me and him together for the past year. She saw us kiss and hug and laugh and be a perfect fucking couple. She's just like her fucking mother. She couldn't keep her fucking legs closed and her jealousy got the best of her. She wants everything i've ever had and now she fucking has it. She went to a fucking extreme. She's a fucking home wrecker just like her fucking mother. All she could fucking say to justify what she did was "I fucking like him ok?!" I swear to god i'm going to end up killing this bitch if I ever see her again. She fucking liked him? Well, I fucking loved him. That was my boyfriend for over 8 fucking months. I went through heaven and hell with that bitch. This is like something you see on fucking Jerry Springer. My life has turned into a fucking episode of Jerry Springer. Holy shit. I don't want anybody's sympathy either. Yea, it fucking sucks. But it's all said and done. They're completely fucked up.

And if any of you ever talk to her again. I will fuck you up just like I fucked that fucking whore up too.


Back from Houston. [Thursday
December 29th, 2005
[ mood | annoyed ]

I'm back in town from Houston. Eh, I can't say i'm too excited about that. You'd think.. after a week of not seeing eachother some people would be more than eager to spend time together but I guess I was wrong. It's strange how things work out sometimes. Oh well, I went shopping at the Galleria of course! I spent lots of money and got lots of cool stuff. A prada purse, a Coach purse, a set of Chanel jewelry and Hollister clothes. High maintenance or what!? Man, I need a job. I spend money I don't have! I got some Versace sunglasses for Xmas!! I love my momie to death for that! Well, besides that I hope you all had a very Merry Christmas. I'm staying here for the rest of the break so call if you want to hang out.

♥ Aida.


dRiVe SlOw HoMiE!! [Friday
December 16th, 2005
[ mood | bouncy ]

I haven't really been updating LiveJournal for a while now. I've been too preoccupied with Myspace! There hasn't been alot going on lately. I've just been trying to pass all of my classes and still have a social life. Sometimes I miss how things used to be, but there isn't anything I can do about it. And at the same time, I don't want to go back to the way things were. I'm actually pretty happy with my life right now. I have my true friends that I can really count on. They know who they are, so I don't have to say any names. My mother and I are doing really well, we haven't been fighting at all. I'm actually doing pretty good in school, with the exception of some classes. We've been having bomb threats again! YAY! It's about damn time, I missed those things! And last but not least, I have a wonderful boyfriend. Most of you don't know who he is, or haven't heard much of him. I'm trying to keep this relationship to myself as much as possible. The last couple of ones have been way too public and they all ended badly. I really do care about him alot. Of course, he isn't perfect, neither am I, but he treats me right. I got a puppy! It's a little weinie dog. Haha, of course, right? He's so tiny! I'm so excited for christmas break! I really need some time to just relax. I absolutely love this cold weather! I really hope it snows again this year. I'm probably going to go to Austin or Houston to visit and shop as always! My grandpa comes home today for winter break. I haven't seen him in about three months now, I really miss him. So i'm pretty excited about that also! Well, I'm in BCIS class, blowing off work. I'll update again some other time. Maybe even a picture post!

♥ Aida.


I live for little moments like that. [Friday
November 18th, 2005
[ mood | excited ]

Hi people! I haven't updated this thing in a really long time. There has been alot going on, but I think everything is finally calming down. Thank god, I hate stupid drama. School has been so annoying, there is way too much work for me to do but i'm too lazy to do any of it. I'll just start working alot harder when we get back from Thanksgiving break. I love how LiveJournal isn't blocked at school anymore! I'm staying in Corpus for the break but my aunt, uncle and little cousins are coming to visit. I haven't been doing much of anything lately.. mostly spending time with Rob, his friends, Rosana and Vanessa. I've been having way too much fun lately. I forgot how great things can be when you have someone that cares about you but, I have to go now! I'll make a bigger post later when I have some time.

Smile! :)


October 19th, 2005
Astros are gonna fucken take the world series.

October 17th, 2005
fuck the cardinals.

Remember.. Drive slow! [Monday
September 26th, 2005
[ mood | confused ]

Daaanng, this weekend was really fun!

Thank god the hurricane didn't show up! Even so, Austin was great. My little cousins are so adorable and hilarious. My one year old baby cousin took off her shirt and started swinging it around her head yelling 'weee!' haha.. I taught her all she knows! Then we went shopping in San Marcus! Of course I hit up all those damn stores and did some damage! That's never gonna change! When we got home I unpacked everything I had taken which was 90% of my room. Later on that night Miss Emily came by to visit! We thought up our evil plan for the night and decided to go to Daniel and Estevan's house. It was akward at first.. since the infamous cocksucker was there but the night turned out alright. Afterall.. there was some serious eyecandy for the night! I missed those boys! Haha, I didn't mean to but someway or another I was totally gone when I went home that night. I'm so glad Emily went with me! I wouldn't have gotten through the night without her! And of course.. as always.. one night with him brought back old memories.. but i'll get over it. Anyways, Sunday night I went out with Mellie and we went to Barnes and Nobles then went to the boys' house. Mike nearly gave me a heart attack with the picture he showed me on his phone! Haha, I love Mellie and the guys. I hadn't seen Eduardo since he left for Venezuela.. and I missed my hoe Andres. Well, now I'm off to finish my english paper. I haven't done any type of school work this weekend.

I love you!!


Rita. [Thursday
September 22nd, 2005
[ mood | worried ]

I'm leaving for Austin to stay with my Aunt for a couple days. I really hope you all stay safe. Get out of here! Now! I love you all, and god be with you. (This is seriously NOT the time to start any 'god isn't real' crap.)

I packed up all my pictures, notebooks and Chanel stuff. I'm ready to go.

Ps. Razzy, if you decide to stay and jump on a trampoline in a Superman suit, I will bitch slap you.


I hate ghetto bitches. [Wednesday
August 24th, 2005
[ mood | stressed ]

Short update. I don't have much time do to much of anything these days.

It's only the second week of school and i'm so stressed out. I have tons of homework, idk how the hell teachers think we can do it all. But of course, i'm procrastinating as always. I have a bunch of clubs i've gotten myself into, and the meetings aren't exactly tons of fun. I also have to find myself a damn job. If anyone knows of a place that is hiring, let me know. I haven't been shopping in almost a month and that is really irritating me. I can't think of anything besides sleep. I miss my guys a little too much. I've been trying not to think about it, and it was working until a certain someone decides to pop up at Carroll. When you graduate.. you don't go back to the damn school. Especially when some people hate you or worse yet.. love you. There is already drama and we're barely beginning school. It's amazing how some people can be so childish yet still be considered to be Juniors in Highschool. I'll try to keep myself out of it all, but i'm always dragged into it. But thank god I have my lovely Emily! She's been such a great support.. whenever I feel i'm about to break down she makes me smile and remember how great everything really is! I missed Razzy, but he's back to loving me again. That makes me happy. Now I have to try and look my best every damn day of school in case a certain idiot decides to pop up again. Great.

I used alot of I's in that entry...


....I love you, is that okay?... [Monday
August 15th, 2005
[ mood | calm ]

The obvious is that summer is over. It was short, nothing to amazing but I still had tons of fun. I prolly gained an entire person over the summer since my lazy ass was always at home in bed watching the Nanny. Some friendships dwindled and others strengthened. I love my Emily so much! We're so alike it's crazy! I'll never forget the times I had with her this summer. I'm so glad I met her last year because she's like my soul mate! I can't forget my Mellie, but all of you know that she is always going to be my best friend. I didn't see much of anyone this summer but I saw who mattered. School was alright. I'm not going to lie and say it was so awesome and what not because it really wasn't. This morning Mellie picked me up then we went to get Emily, the car ride was fun. I was singing like a crazy person since there was so much traffic. When we got there and I went over to the 5th wing I half expected to see my guys there waiting for me like usual but instead there were a bunch of freshman ghetto kids. So depressing. Why did they have to go and graduate on me!? I'm not as secure as I once felt before as corny as it really sounds. Another thing is that I didn't see a single attractive guy! What the hell is that?! School should not be like that! I have first lunch shift with Mellie, Samantha, Blaze and Amy. I'm going to miss my Emily and Lorena! I need to make some schedule changes because a majority of my classes have complete idiots in them. Well, heres to another school year! I'll make the best of it without my guys but I know i'll miss them. Carroll isn't going to be the same without them!


Ain't nothing like those summer nights! [Monday
August 8th, 2005
[ mood | cheerful ]

HI BABES!! This weekend was hella fun. I litteraly was at the mall for three days in a row. I truly am a shopaholic at her worst! Well I got to hang out with my two loves Emily and Bethany! We went to the mall and shopped our little butts off! The next day my momie, her friends and I went to Bob Hall Pier just to waste some time. I love the beach! I finally saw Marie this summer! I went to visit her at work and brought her a cookie. The least I could do compared to all that she's done for me! Today was pretty interesting.. Miss Emily came over and we watched LAGUNA BEACH! OMG! Can you believe LC and Stephen hooked up?! Haha that 'do not disturb' sign! ;) Anywho, Matthew came over as well! That boy is so damn sexy.. right Emily?! I'm so excited about school! I can't wait!! I have so much stuff to wear it's crazy! and I miss my girls so much!

haha, what hoe shit this is... don't you love it!?
FoRget ThE PaNtIeS, BuY A ThOnG, PaRtY HaRd, AlL NiTe LoNg, DrInK TeQuLiA, TaKe A ShOt, BAnG ThE GuY U ThInK Is HoTt, GeT LaId CuZ ItS LiKe HeAvEn CuZ WhErE ThE ClAsS Of DoUbLe-O7! PaRtY HaRdY ShAkE ThAt A$$ DrInK It Up CuZ We'Re ThE ClAsS. ReMeMbEr ThE BoY, ReMeMbEr ThE KiSs, ReMeMbEr ThE NiGhTs ThAt We AlL MiSs, SeX, DrUgS, RoCk N RoLl, CoNdOmS, HoEs, BiRtH CoNtRoL, HaViNg FuN, We'Re FrOm HeAvEn, We'Re ThE ClASs Of 2007!Collapse )


Fun day! [Saturday
July 30th, 2005
[ mood | relaxed ]

Today was hella fun! I got to spend my day at the Holiday Inn relaxing my hoe ass! My mom's friends from Austin were coming in pretty late in the day so they let me stay in their hotel room for the day which was tons of fun. I litterally got to spend my day in three different rooms. I got hit on a couple of times, once in the elevator and a few times at the pool/beach. It was weird. The first room I stayed in had an amazing view of the beach so I took a bunch of pictures. Then the other room was the same one I stayed in when I had my quince so it was a bit creepy being in there again after a year. It brought back some memories.. but oh well, I got over it. I woke up at five, got to the hotel around 6:45 with my mom then I went to eat breakfast. I took a loooong nap, the best damn nap i'v ever had. Then I went down to visit my madre and chat with some of the guys working. They're pretty funny. My mom beats them. Then I went out walking on the beach and it was only around nine so it looked really pretty out. Later on I went to this girls graduation party and I just chatted with Sarah and her friend. Anywho, all in all, I had tons of fun. I talk alot of shit about Corpus Christi but I honestly think this city is beautiful.

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July 27th, 2005
[ mood | bouncy ]

Long time no update, huh?! Well, my trip was lots of fun! I'm pretty tan now.. from spending hours in the sun in my uncles pool! I love Houston, seriously, it's totally my city. I didn't get to spend too much time in Austin.. actually I was only there a day. I shopped tons at the outlets in San Marcus and the Galleria and little shops that I found in Katy. As always, I made my mother empty her bank account! I got a Gucci wallet, two new beaded purses, some polos and a sweater from aeropostal, some clothes from AE, and a new longhorns shirt that I got when I was in Austin. My schedule came in the mail! I won't post it though because i'm going to change a bunch of classes. My Mellie got a car!! I'm so proud of my little hoe, she's all grown up. Today we went out driving.. It was so weird because we actually couldn't decide on what to do because there was so much to be done! My sexy Venezuelan boys are back also! I think tomorrow we might go to a Hooks game.. It's still in the works but i've missed those two so much! My mom is seriously thinking about buying me a car.. Hopefully she'll give in. What car do you peopl think I would look best in?

I didn't get many pictures when I was in houston/austin but i'll post some of mellie in her car today!

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AUSTIN! [Wednesday
July 20th, 2005
[ mood | excited ]

In a few hours I shall be going to the best city in the world.. AUSTIN, TEXAS! HAhaha, I shall be shopping at the outlets, staring at the hott UT boys and of course visiting the Real World house! I promise i'll bring back pictures! Then on the weekend i'm off to Houston where I shall swim in my uncles badass pool and shop until I die.

I shall be having fun. Don't miss me too much.


I rarely do this shit. [Tuesday
July 19th, 2005
[ mood | tired ]

1. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you.
2. I will then tell what song reminds me of you.
3. i will tell you something only the two of us will understand.
4. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
5. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
6. I will tell you what color you remind me of.
7. Put this in your journal

July 10th, 2005
[ mood | tired ]

The past couple of days have been very fun! Mellie has spent the night, actually the weekend. Michael's house was pretty fun, I saw tons and tons of people that i've missed terribly. Then today I went shopping with Mellie and went to Stephanie's quince. I bought a coach purse!! I'm so happy!! Well, the quince was lots of fun! She looked so pretty, just like a little princess. I miss my quince.. :/ Well people, my dog was found... but the people that found him took him to a clinic because he was in really bad shape and they decided to put him to sleep. I'm going to miss my doggie.


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Please help! [Sunday
July 3rd, 2005
My dog ran away. If any of you see him please call 658-2659! He's real old, about 13 years old actually.. I've had him since I was three. He's on medication so he can't be too long without it. He answers to Topocho, please if ya'll have seen him at all please let me know! He's a huge part of my family..

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My new layout sucks!! [Friday
July 1st, 2005
[ mood | silly ]

Hi Everyone!

Houston was lots of fun! The only thing that sucked was that I couldn't go to Warped tour due to some unfortunate events. I'm still pretty pissed that Raziel didn't call me during Matchbook Romance. I had so much barbeque it was insane! I bought tons of cute little jewelry sets! I think I should live in Houston, it's my kind of city. I got a bit more tan because I was always swimming at my uncles house. I even got to go to an Astros game against the Rangers, which was hella fun! Baseball is probably the only sport I truly enjoy watching.

Last night Emily and Emily came over! We tried watching The Notebook but that got too depressing so we watched The Sweetest Thing instead. I hadn't seen my Em in forever! I missed my whore! Mellie came back from Cancun and I went swimming at her house a couple days ago. It's so weird that we didn't have Eduardo and Andres to hang out with also. I got to talk to Samantha a couple days ago also, talked about not getting any ass, like old times. You gotta love that!

I got a job! I have no idea when I start but I'm a hostess at the hotel restaurant! Yay! I kinda miss school. My mind was actually working then.Well, this is a short entry cause well idk I'm a boring person I guess.

comment bitches!

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